Pleasing...sacrifice.

Have you ever wanted to please some one so badly that it tore you up inside? Well that's been my life for the last week. My director at school is a very esteemed man. He's very awesome and is just a person you never want to let down. I'm a currently a sophomore and one of the best trumpet players at my school which very unusual. It's a very good thing but it also puts alot of pressure on me. I feel for the first a deep dedication to someone. Which is definitely not a good thing. I've wanted nothing more than to please my band director. To get that pat on the back when you walk off the field means everything to me now. And things get worse and worse from there.

I realized how much a problem this was. I realized that if I kept taking this gift that God gave me for granted it would be taken away from me. So wednesday night this week I had had enough. I couldn't take the things in my life anymore, and I couldn't take the pressure of being perfect. So I sacrificed my gift to the Lord. I gave it up and said I can't do this with out you. I feel on my knees and begged for forgiveness. My life was renewed.

I still really struggle with trying to please people of this world and I would just ask you all to pray for me for that : ) I ask that with great meaning. I truely need help with this. Thanks for reading : )

Blessings,

Kathryn : )

Music = My life! ( No seriously it's like all I do)

So today was the final day of signing up for anything musical at my school. And i'm proud to say that I am indulged in everything musical at my school...EVERYTHING! Let me give you a glimpse into what my week will be like the next school year. First the groups I am in. Marching Band, Concert Band, Stage Band, Brass Quintet, Wind Ensemble and eventually Christmas Brass. Then I'm auditioning for County Band. I'll let you know that goes. Then there's vocal. Concert Choir and Chorale. Then I'm also auditioning for County and District Chorus. So my week will be as the following...

Monday : Corps Activities ( once private lessons start)
Tuesday : Stage Band before school from 7:45- 8:15 and Stage Band 6-8 pm
Wednesday: County Chorus audition practice and eventually Chorale. Wind Ensemble either before or after school.
Thursday: Stage band before school from 7:45-8:15 and Brass Quintet after school (most likely)
Friday: Pep rally in the morning Football game in evenings til the end of November.
Saturdays: Twice a month Pendel Brass rehearsals, parades and some stage band concerts :]

I'm glad i'm busy and I know that I will just continue to grow as a musician. Today I played in Stage band this morning, a sectional around noon and marching band for about 40 mins in the afternoon and I've made it a habit of practicing at home every night but i didn't get to tonight because of family visiting and I noticed just how irritable I was from not practicing. I really praise God for giving me this motivation to move on in music. I felt for a long time like I didn't have the drive to be a dedicated musician anymore but I feel as though I really am now.

Please pray that I can keep this schedule up :]

P.S. I'm getting straight a's and i'd like to keep it there :]

You're in my prayers :]

Blessings,

Kathryn :]

Prayer Request!

Can I ask a favor of you all? I am asking for you to pray a prayer of healing for my grandmother. On monday she starts the first week or six weeks of kimmo and radium treatments. She is a faithful servant of the Lord and has layed down her life for him. I love her alot and she means more to me than you can ever know. Pray for healing, strength and perserverance.

Even the littlest pray will be appreciated!
Thanks!

Blessings,

Kathryn.

Amazed.

There are alot of things in life that amaze me. But there is one thing ( or shall I say many) that cease to amaze me as a christian young person in my walk with the Lord.
To some this may seem like absolutely nothing but for me it is truely a blessing from the Lord. It's the simple people who go to every corps and without being made to and sometimes with out any influence at all, lay down their lives for the Lord and live for him obediently. It's the sinners who live life unknowingly of the Lord until their late 30's and 40's and accept what their told sometimes without even seeing one other saved person live a good christian life. I praise God for the strong Christian examples i've had in my life and I can't say that I would've stuck with my walk without them.

Seeing these examples in my corps today reminded me of a verse of scripture I came across this week in devotions.
" God has had it with the proud, But takes delight in just plain people"
1 Peter 5:5, TM

I thank the Lord for the examples these people have been in my life. And I thank the Lord for their willingness to continue their in spite of those who may live around them.

Thank You Lord :]


Blessings,

Kathryn