Pleasing...sacrifice.

Have you ever wanted to please some one so badly that it tore you up inside? Well that's been my life for the last week. My director at school is a very esteemed man. He's very awesome and is just a person you never want to let down. I'm a currently a sophomore and one of the best trumpet players at my school which very unusual. It's a very good thing but it also puts alot of pressure on me. I feel for the first a deep dedication to someone. Which is definitely not a good thing. I've wanted nothing more than to please my band director. To get that pat on the back when you walk off the field means everything to me now. And things get worse and worse from there.

I realized how much a problem this was. I realized that if I kept taking this gift that God gave me for granted it would be taken away from me. So wednesday night this week I had had enough. I couldn't take the things in my life anymore, and I couldn't take the pressure of being perfect. So I sacrificed my gift to the Lord. I gave it up and said I can't do this with out you. I feel on my knees and begged for forgiveness. My life was renewed.

I still really struggle with trying to please people of this world and I would just ask you all to pray for me for that : ) I ask that with great meaning. I truely need help with this. Thanks for reading : )

Blessings,

Kathryn : )