Revelation of the Spirit- #53 Sure Salvation

So I don't know how far off I am this post but I just ask that you would read and give me feedback because I really feel as though I'm supposed to learn more from this post.

This is kind of what goes through my mind when someone stands up and says " I know I'm going to heaven" or " I know that I will see such and such relative again someday in heave".

Do any of us really know if we are fit for heaven? Can any of us truly be sure that we will be in heaven one day?

Well I can't answer those questions for everyone but I can answer them for myself. I am never sure that I am fit for heaven or that I will be in heaven one day. This isn't because I doubt that there is a heaven or that I doubt God's love for me and desire for me to be there. It's my self. I doubt my own sincerity of my confession of my sins everyday. I feel that if I ask for forgiveness everyday in my devotions it becomes routine. Especially on the days when I look at what I've done and say " well all I did was tell a little lie" or I feel as though my sin is insignificant. 

So being unsure of my place in heaven is what keeps me desperate for the Lord everyday.  It's what keeps me asking for forgiveness even over the little sins. If I stood up for one second and thought my ticket to heaven was sure I'd be a lot worse off. 

I'm not sure I will be in heaven. But I know everyday I come to the Lord desperate for His forgiveness and mercy. I plead with him for my salvation and that one day I might see His face in all His glory. I can't say this makes sense to anyone else but in my heart it does. It's what keeps me running this race for His glory. For the crown of life.